My curiosity of the natural hair journey began when I had enough of my mother burning me with the hot comb and flat iron (TBH). But even after my initial thought of going natural it took me years until I actually made the commitment. The day I cut my hair I was home with my mother/hairstylist (professional , don't play) and we were about to do the usual press and such but something just wasn't sitting right with me on the amount of heat i put on my hair every two weeks. I had been recently binge watching naturalistas on YouTube and I had all of the hype i needed. When the time came I blatantly told my mother to cut it all off . I didn't want to transition because I knew that it would be a distraction and I would just eventually start to straighten my hair again. So, I Big Chopped that HO.
A lot of people start this journey just for a new start to better tresses but I had NUMEROUS reasons why I felt like I needed this pivotal turn in my life. I was still trying to find my identity that i lost from a 5-yr relationship, I felt like i didn't know my true self, and I was frankly tired of being noticed for my hair and the different cuts and colors i would wear. It was almost like i wanted to humble myself by stripping my crown (only to grow a new and bigger one ). My mother actually would state how she would NOT help me with my hair and would stress how much work it would be for me trying to discourage me but when she realized why I was doing it and how hell bent I was she helped.
NOW THE GOOD PART ... After I cut my hair .... I was L O S T L O S T. Looking back i was lost at every turn I took FOR REAL . From the baby hairs, hair color and cut, and side part (I WOULD FORCE) YOU COULD TELL i just didn't know what the hell was going on. This was the most impulsive decision i've made. Luckily, my hair was short and I didn't have to do too much to it at first but wash and condition it when needed, put my lil curl activator in, and keep it pushing. HOWEVER, now that my hair has some length I have to tend to it more. Due to me not knowing the difference between a hair mask and deep conditioner I went to YOUTUBE. Now don't get me wrong , the YouTubers are a big HELP but they are not the rulebook. I spent hours at a time searching that dark hole for influencers that had the same or similar texture as me to see what they were doing but that only ended up making me more lost than I already was at times. On top of that I didn't know how to braid , twist, or finger coil that well either and you don't get a lot of help from others sis. So you can only imagine the struggle I was going through.🤦🏽♀️ I still have a very loooooooong way to go too. I still don't understand my hair texture completely , hair porosity, or how to braid to the scalp but i guess that's why they call it the NATURAL HAIR JOURNEY. I have became comfortable being uncomfortable and thats the key to the door when you finally make it to the other side.
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